Inspiration....

Love After Love...

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here, Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine.  Give bread.  Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you've ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peal your own image from the mirror.
Sit.  Feast on your life.

~Derek Walcott~

Some four weeks ago, Chiron, The Wounded Healer
moved into my third house and since that time I
have been observing some pretty astounding
happenings that are occuring within me.  This
week was no exception.  With the occurance of
Veteran's Day and all that that implies, the
awareness of 11/11 and all that that brings to us,
a show on Oprah yesterday that had my world
reeling, has really left me incredulous to say the
very least.  And this is what I noticed about myself-

That I found I had been praying for the collected
wounds of all consciousness, since time began,
across all dimensions, times and realities, or the
illusion of realities and it hit me right in the third
eye, the heart, and my gut!!! And...don't you know,
I felt a shifting much like a tectonic plate in the
earth moving within me, so much so that by the time
I went to bed last night, it felt like I was walking
on two different levels of the earth...I then had to
gently reign myself back into my body and it took
me a while to be able to calm myself down enough
to do it.  So yesterday, emotions would sweep over
me, and I had to address each one as it moved over
me because I know this Me, in this body right now,
that I would never be able to sleep if I didn't take
care of it.  Prayer, or just talking with Mother/Father
God, brings me out of my mind and into my heart so
that is what I had to do, and did. 

As the poem above suggests...I met myself at my own
door, and looked in the mirror of my longing and smiled. 
The collective wounds of history are being healed...it was
evidenced to me when I listened to a powerful video which
engaged some men who had served in Viet Nam that
had not forgiven themselves for killing, and the way
they had brought forgiveness to themselves and others,
so that they could walk on in forgiveness through their life.
It was life altering for me as I watched them.  It was
in the communication of all of these things that Chiron
has been helping me to understand and heal my own
collective.  Does that make sense to you?  And then
again as I watched Oprah's show yesterday, which was
about men having been abused sexually as children
that I was able to understand through their collective
wounds the collective wound in me...I can't tell you
how incredibly powerful that was for me as I thought
my having forgiven my perpetrators was enough...but
it wasn't.  I had to forgive myself too, and really?  I
have such a long way to go with that...there is more
lurking under the surface that keeps coming up that
I am sure Chiron will help me to communicate with
myself even further.  Astounding!  At fifty-seven years
of age and I am still walking through the doors of
other times and dimensions and am living proof that
you can teach an old dog new tricks...I am slowly and
tenderly embracing each one as it comes...I am taking
down my love letters, my notes, my photographs and
looking at myself with newness of spirit...I can't tell
you that it all feels good yet, as some of it still hurts,
but I trust the process that Chiron has presented to me,
and the healing that will come from it in totality when
I am ready to receive it.

I hope you can remember your wounds and how they
fit into the collective wounds of humanity...and then
somehow come to understand them and forgive
yourself and all others who played a part in the wound.
I promise you it will be everything you needed/wanted
and more and will be revealed to you when you most
need it to appear, so that you too can .........
Feast On Your Life!

Here's wishing you a Feast fit for Kings and Queens
as all of you truly are!

Behold the Day!

P.S.  Here is a link to a video I watched on Forgiveness
and Healing that I was sharing with you...

http://www.linktv.org/globalspirit/forgiveness

Just click on the link!  :)